it's time to lay them down

Entering into God's presence has always been JOY at its purest form for me. nothing that trump that. nothing. as I did devos these past 2 weeks in between or prior to my studying sessions, God has revealed Himself to me in new and quite the challenging ways; given His full knowledge of I have been facing recently. boy He knows! :P

¹⁰ "The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom,
and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.

Proverbs 9:10 (NIV)

I was sharing with a friend today about me asking God for wisdom and discernment. as I was saying these words and feeling a sense of pride that I'm getting my hands dirty and ready to learn to live IN this world although I'm not OF it, I knew deep inside, my desire for those virtues fell short of solely wanting them for His glory, more like to please men. I was like wow. I knew that God knew this weakness of mine and He gave me real reality check of where He was in my life. I found my confidence being misplaced. from Him to this world; my friends, myself, etc. Characteristics as good as those can with a flick of dust turn into pure idolatry when it becomes for selfish gain instead of for the glory of God. It's so easy to get away with the excuse that it is for the sake of unity and making peace with friends and fellow brother and sisters. Yet exuding anything that is centred around anything apart from God Alone is idolatry. And when we make an idol out of anything : even godly virtues such as these, is still SIN. God also clearly said He is a jealous God who hates sin and idols our nature that are constantly made to satisfy the comfort of our human nature. comfort. Does this even occur to you as a real problem?

I have been asking myself.

Am I alive everyday for God?

Or am I living in this world but becoming OF this world as well?

During devos this week, God has showed me that wisdom to deal with this world I'm living in is nothing apart from being centred around learning to giving all my respect for His name first. As wisdom initially came from God Himself, the wisest person whose heart seeks to please him or herself, in turn can only be the greatest fool in the eyes of God, is he/she not? To be more bold, {how can he/she not be in all contexts?} When we allow ourselves to become more familiar with who God is and are willing to let Him conform our hearts to whatever He pleases, won't we then come to realize that we are nothing apart from Him? And never will be. However, have we also realized that the world has allured us into thinking that He is nothing apart from Us. Have we made ourselves god. and molding Him in to our own images? Can you face God upfront right now and say that you haven't? I have. and it is precisely why I felt I had to post this today. Like me, if you have, then let me ask you again, then why do you confess, keep singing and declaring that 'we live for your glory God' BEFORE acknowledging these sins and brokenness to Him first?

Are we still negotiating with Him about how we are going live our lives according to our worldly wisdom or are we willing to start to pay attention to our own brokenness in order to work out our salvation.

REAL REALITY CHECK. God being the very Centre of reality.